Friday, June 27, 2008

on crying

a while ago, I entered a freebie draw on LuSummers blog to win one of her lovely prints. I didn't win, but the reason I'm writing about this is that Lu asked us to comment about the last time we cried. I'm not a big crier really - I can only recall the last time I cried as being the last time I threw up, but today, I just feel like crying.

It's been a tough week. Me and Mr Monda feel totally exhausted - the stress and the effort of looking after a poorly cat, whilst still trying to go about your normal everyday life is having an impact on us. This sounds dramatic but it's just so emotionally draining. If only cats could talk, then poor Stevie could tell us how she is feeling.
This week we had to take her to the vets on Wednesday - just for a routine check up, and for the most part Stevie was fine, except that she had to have an enema to help her 'go'. It worked whilst we were still at the vets. We also had to go back to the vets this evening because Stevie has stopped eating and going to the toilet, and she spent the last 24hrs being sick.
The vet wants us to take her back in the morning for more x-rays, and maybe an ultrasound, which just means another anaesthetic and potentially a weekend stay at the vet for Stevie. The vet we saw today was not particularly sympathetic and seemed to want to pull Stevie around until she yelped and cried, which made me feel quite cross honestly.

I feel stressed because of the stress she is going through - constant trips to the doctor and being left in an unfamiliar place with people you don't know whilst feeling sick would be awful for a person and I can only imagine it is the same for a cat.

Aside from my cat woes, a fairly busy deadline driven week at work, and a trip to the Dentist for me this afternoon has left me feeling like I want to cry. I wish I could just blub as it would probably make me feel better but I can't, like I said, I'm just not a crier - I don't even cry properly, I have no tears when I cry.
I have also achieved nothing creative this week, and that also makes me feel crappy, so all round I would say that this week has been one I don't want to revisit in a hurry thank you very much.

For my friend Marla, who reads my blog and thinks that everything that I write is 'nice' and 'happy'- finally you get to read something real and quite depressing - proof that I am a normal person after all :o)
All being well, normal happy service will resume next week!


Anonymous said...

I hope your week improves and you feel like laughing soon!

jojoebi said...

sorry to hear Stevie is having such a rough time (as well as mommy and daddy Monda).
Re: crying, I never used to be a crier either, until I became a mother, now I fill up at the silliest of things!

paper-and-string said...

poor Stevie, and poor you two too!
I hope you can have a better weekend and start again all fresh and perky on Monday :-)

silverpebble said...

So sorry you've had such a tough week. I really hope Stevie gets better, or at least the vet can tell you what might be wrong - that can sometimes help to clarify things and can be a step towards an effective treatment.

All best wishes


Lesley said...

Oh Monda, poor you and poor Stevie - I really hope you get through this really soon.

It sounds to me like a great big scream would do you good, let alone a cry!!!



Anonymous said...

I am so sorry that you and poor Stevie feel so low. I know how I would feel if it was one of my cats. I'm not too good at crying either - but I used to go and sit in the car and scream - no one else could hear and it made me feel as though I was able to display and let out some of what I felt. Hope everything improves soon

Kitty said...

Any of us in your situation would want to cry. It's completely understandable. Quite honestly, can you imagine what sort of monster you'd be if you DIDN'T want to cry after a week like that? Not one of your nice stylish monsters, that's for sure.

Here's wishing you, Mr Monda and Stevie have a much better week this coming week. For what it's worth, you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care. xx

Creme Brule said...

Sending you some long distant hugs from the States. I'm sorry you are having such a rotten time just now. Tracy

Gina said...

Wishing you and Stevie a better week next week - really hope she gets better soon. Thinking about you.
Gina x

Joleo said...

I have my fingers crossed for Stevie. - you must feel horrendous. I can have a cry for you if you like, since I cry at the drop of a hat...but seriously - hope all is well when you next hear from the vet.